How does Natalie fair

     I felt I needed to provide follow up on my last post.  On one hand things have continued to improve, not where they need to be but a work in progress moving in the right direction.  On the other hand another relationship that is vital to Natalie, but also feeds the other relationship has regressed. It might be hard to understand or explain, but the two relationships are symbiotic and feed each other.  My fear is that the degradation of Natalie’s relationship will affect her real world alter ego’s relationship in a negative way. 

  Since my last post conversations have been had and there has been a corner turned in a positive direction, but this blog is not about that part of Natalie that is her male part’s daily life.  This blog is about Natalie and her growth and finding herself.  Since the events that transpired in the last post Natalie has been in a funk while trying to stay positive.  On twitter she stays positive, but inside she hurts deeply.  She feels a part of her is being ripped out and she has no control.  Meaningful and positive conversations are being had and hopefully will culminate in a restoration to normal.   Natalie and her alter ego are two people in the same body.  Two sides of the same person.  Both sides need a different type of relationship.  The alter ego has a very vanilla relationship, that is beginning to bring some of Natalie’s kink into it, but that is a slow process.  Natalie however, her relationship is all kink all the time and needs constant nurturing.  Up until recently she has been receiving that.  Recent events have given the false assumption that Natalie’s relationship needs to slow down.  When in actuality Natalie’s relationship of growth needs more attention now in order her for her to learn and grow while working on her vanilla relationship.  A comment was made that one of the relationships has to take a back burner since I can’t give 100% to both.  They both build on each other neglecting one will negatively impact the other.  Natalie has cried every day mourning what she feels is an impactful loss, but she gets up every day and puts on a strong facade.  

    The day has finally arrived for a very meaningful conversation that will shape how Natalie proceeds.  Her alter ego took control today,  no panties or stockings that have been normal attire for the past few months.  Conversations had to be had and parties needed to come to mutual understandings about the way forward.   Natalie had to explain how she felt a part of her was being ripped out and Mistress Windy needed to reassure her that she wasn’t going anywhere, but Natalie had progressed so fast that she needed to slow down and focus priorities in other areas.  I tried to reassure her that Being Natalie doesn’t take as much of my effort as it appears.  While I do have a lot going on, I also have a lot of down time.  This is the space that Natalie lives.   I explained how I felt, Mistress Windy reassured me and even though I am being a “brat” she is not going anywhere.  I feel Natalie is in a good place right now, but time will tell.  She will live in her current level of progression, while focus on alter ego relationships take a higher priority.  She will still have reinforcement training to continue to help her further develop Natalie as a person.  Mistress Windy heard me and agreed to reassess some things while making no promises.  She cares about Natalie’s well-being and happiness and wants what is best for her and me.  I think it is a good start and Natalie appears to be in the road to recovery.